well ; lets exploit this bad boy .
so yesterday, i didnt go to some "new" church my parents are attending now, cause i had a "stomach ache" , go figure . My dad spazzed, as usual - and told me i couldn't go out if i wasn't going to church - BIG DEAL . so they left, im alone, no food at home - great - so i do what i do best - - ONLINE window SHOPPING - -
that went well i guess ;:
then i got a much anticipated phone call from Finishline stating i start work on wednesday, YAY - how much fun -__-
from there, everything seemed to be getting better, i went to church, MY CHURCH, at 3ish then went to go eat w| my sister and mom, where i then vented to my mom about my girlfriend, or well . . my female friend , that i happened to have immense feelings for but apparently don't know how to express them. .. but w|e thats besides the point , point is . .. mom dukes knows, so that means its pretty serious, well to me atleast .
so yea my day had pretty much shifted, from shitty to .. pretty ? lOL
(idk it rhymed] then i got home and watched The Kardashians for like 4 hours lol until i got that dreaded text . ..
but w h y ?
OUCH . ..
but yea ;: the rest i guess . .. will come to what it comes to, im only human - i cant force my will onto anybody really ;: i spoke on that like .. 2 months ago, 2days before i got with her - - LiNK TO PREViOUS BLOG , and now im addressing it again 2 days before we make our 2 months - OH THE IRONY = /
but its cool w|e happens happens , God knows all things, & ive learned, that hearts are made to be broken, so if this is whats next for me, then hopefully i have the strengths to amount to it, accept it, and overcome it . .
. . although , at this point, i REALLY dont want to = |
BRAIN FOOD :: . .
there's a method to my madness; im sorry
its just theoretically incomprehensible & boring
I guess, I didn't mean to cause u stress my barbie
& if you didn't have my heart ;:
how could your words harm me?
You know how I hate to be questioned
Why speak when I tend2 show my affection ?
& aimlessly , i follow my heart & its direction
& leaving you aren't apart of my intentions .
if I've been a bad boy, u can keep me for detention
I've studied but i haven't perfected this section
Loving you is hard & I hope this relieves some tension
Loving you is my job & i don't plan on receiving any pension .
& if my love for u is inadequate ;:
Than I pray for the strengths to be able to battle it .
& if all beginnings have an ending then I don't ever wanna start ;: & I don't wanna put any pressure on u - but baby im trusting you w| my heart .
- Archetype : l'honnête vérité
- but baby i just wouldn't be the S A M E :;
cause girl your love is stilL on my brain .
